Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Let go

Hey;*

Please comment,, 7atan lo one word, just let me know that ur there..
a little motivation is all im asking ;$

This is just a random post I felt like writing but it has nothing
To do with me..
non of my random posts do ;p

Enjoy;*

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I hate that since we ended it

Things started appearing in my life

Reminding me of you

Whether it was a character in a movie

hearing ur name being uttered by people

listening to a song we loved

went to a place u told me about

And the list goes on..

all of those little things just brings it all back

a feeling that cuts its way through my heart

like ripping out the stitches after its been healed

this agonizing pain that ur brain tends to automatically shut off

and acts like a sedative to my emotions

a drug to my soul

and peace to my heart

I admit we shared an interesting adventure

We’ve climbed mountains

Fought tigers

Collected stones

But in the end of it all

I remain the one with all the wounds

Yes u gave me some painkillers

But baby didn’t they tell u?

They don’t last long.


U were my best friend

The person I talk to when im bored

The person that always tend to cheer me up

The person that always finds a way to make me laugh

And then there were those dark days

The days that I fear

The days that I resent

The days that make me hate u

The days that ruin everything

Only those days made me realize

That I’m merely but a toy to u

A toy that u have so much fun with

but when ur done u throw it away

what u didn’t know was

that toy had a heart


I brush it off

I forgive

I forget

I try to be understanding

That ur acting this way

Because of what ur going through

I try to help

And I keep trying

Until u changed

u shut me down

and pushed me away

Telling me u don’t want anything to do with me

Not now, not ever

Im not a good person

Was what uve told me

but I don’t buy that

I believe in u

i told u a million times

u just cant accept that fact

ur not being able to see that in urself

and I don’t blame u

but I cant make u

so u turned against me

and I had enough.


im not a toy for u to play with

im not a carpet for u to step on

im not a clown for u to mock at

im not a robot for u to operate

im not a drug for u to trash

im not a computer for u to press ‘stand by’

im just not that person

and I never will be

the doors are closed.


I managed to forget about u

erase u from my heart

delete u from any connection possible

u had no right to dig back into my life again

to say that u miss me

to say that ur sorry

to say that u want me back

I couldn’t help but shed tears

Upon reading those words

Cuz all I could think about

Was wanting to say

Those 3 words to u

The ones that I came to understand

The ones that I cant deny

The ones that im certain of

I clicked on the ‘reply’ button

And started typing those 3

Most painful words



































It’s too late.

2 comments:

  1. IMPECCABLE.

    Mashallah you can WRITE! I love it, please post more! ;D

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  2. ya b3ady intay wallah;**
    u just made my day!! thank u!;D
    i will inshallah..
    love u;*

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