Sunday, September 26, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Let go
Please comment,, 7atan lo one word, just let me know that ur there..
a little motivation is all im asking ;$
This is just a random post I felt like writing but it has nothing
To do with me..
non of my random posts do ;p
Enjoy;*
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I hate that since we ended it
Things started appearing in my life
Reminding me of you
Whether it was a character in a movie
hearing ur name being uttered by people
listening to a song we loved
went to a place u told me about
And the list goes on..
all of those little things just brings it all back
a feeling that cuts its way through my heart
like ripping out the stitches after its been healed
this agonizing pain that ur brain tends to automatically shut off
and acts like a sedative to my emotions
a drug to my soul
and peace to my heart
I admit we shared an interesting adventure
We’ve climbed mountains
Fought tigers
Collected stones
But in the end of it all
I remain the one with all the wounds
Yes u gave me some painkillers
But baby didn’t they tell u?
They don’t last long.
U were my best friend
The person I talk to when im bored
The person that always tend to cheer me up
The person that always finds a way to make me laugh
And then there were those dark days
The days that I fear
The days that I resent
The days that make me hate u
The days that ruin everything
Only those days made me realize
That I’m merely but a toy to u
A toy that u have so much fun with
but when ur done u throw it away
what u didn’t know was
that toy had a heart
I brush it off
I forgive
I forget
I try to be understanding
That ur acting this way
Because of what ur going through
I try to help
And I keep trying
Until u changed
u shut me down
and pushed me away
Telling me u don’t want anything to do with me
Not now, not ever
Im not a good person
Was what uve told me
but I don’t buy that
I believe in u
i told u a million times
u just cant accept that fact
ur not being able to see that in urself
and I don’t blame u
but I cant make u
so u turned against me
and I had enough.
im not a toy for u to play with
im not a carpet for u to step on
im not a clown for u to mock at
im not a robot for u to operate
im not a drug for u to trash
im not a computer for u to press ‘stand by’
im just not that person
and I never will be
the doors are closed.
I managed to forget about u
erase u from my heart
delete u from any connection possible
u had no right to dig back into my life again
to say that u miss me
to say that ur sorry
to say that u want me back
I couldn’t help but shed tears
Upon reading those words
Cuz all I could think about
Was wanting to say
Those 3 words to u
The ones that I came to understand
The ones that I cant deny
The ones that im certain of
I clicked on the ‘reply’ button
And started typing those 3
Most painful words
It’s too late.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Rice Krispies
up until i spotted that group on Facebook that delivers Rice Krispies to your door step!
Yum!
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Saturday, September 18, 2010
You (part 2)
Just want to make a quick clarification about the story..
The characters stand as an abstract meaning rather than literal, ya3ni they’re not based on actual people but on what they resemble..
Lol if its not clear yet please let me know ;$
Enjoy;**
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“I'll be right back” he said and walked away.
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.
.
I just sat there daydreaming about him, yes I admit it, he took over my brain, my thoughts..
I wonder what could be next?;s
Did I mention he was handsome?
I did?
Well,, That’s only cause words wont do him justice.
His looks are simply beyond description.
Oh shit I forgot saleem!
Dialing Saleem..
Saleem: Hello
Me: Saleem its Hope,, where are you?!
Saleem: im on my way ma’am but there’s been an accident so I might take a while to reach you
Me: oh no that’s ok you don’t have to come im getting my car fixed, you can go back and enjoy your day (I felt guilty)
Saleem: ok ma’am no problem
Me: thanks though. Bye.
End call.
As soon as I ended the call with Saleem, He appeared again, my heart skipped a beat, only this time he was standing in front of my car with his head down checking out the tires..
I got down from the car and walked to where he stood..
“It’s the front right one..” I said smiling..
“Yeah I figured..” he said smiling his angelic smile..
he got down, took out the tool he needed from a box he had beside him, and began unscrewing the tire..
I somehow felt a bit dizzy but I brushed it off..
“Need any help?” I asked, feeling helpless..
“Sure.. if you can get your spare tire” not sounding serious..
“Ok..” but I was. I need to make myself useful..
“Alone? ” he looked at me a bit surprised..
“Yeah, alone,, its just a tire..” I answered coolly..
“You cant carry it by yourself, ill go get it once im done from this.” He said in a matter-of-fact tone and got back to work..
“And why would you think I cant?” I asked curiously..
“Cause the tire is pretty heavier than you are, so you wont be able to”
“Is that so?” I said cutting him short..
“Yepp..” he simply stated..
“Watch me.” I said a bit ticked off..
That’s it. He crossed the line. Who is he to tell me that I cant do something?! Ha?
When I say I can do it, then I can! There's no limit to what I can do!
Well you know what they say.. the sky is the limit..
I got to the trunk, opened it up, lifted the cover where my spare tire was, took the cover away..
wow that thing is pretty big! How come it didn’t look that big on the car?...
uh I don’t really care.. im guna do it.. well atleast im guna try to!
Ok then..
Here goes..
I had my hands on either side of the tire..
“How’s it goin back there?” he asked loud enough..
“Everything is going fine!” I shouted back..
“You’re guna hurt yourself you know”
I ignored..
I heard him chuckle.. whatever..
I slowly began lifting the tire..
Ok it’s a bit heavy..
Sorry its REALLY HEAVY!
Its O.K..
I can do this..
I lifted a bit more..
I can do this..
I can do this..
Just got to keep my hopes up!
Atlast I had it in my arms and slowly began walking, taking tiny steps..
Ok im beginning to feel my head spin..
Oh god this is not good!
I need to focus! .. the sun is way too hot for me to handle!
My vision blurred..
I need..
I need..
I need..
“Help”
And I collapsed..
Mmm.. my pillow seems softer than I can remember..
I slowly opened my eyes and noticed fake painted stars on the ceiling..
Wait I dont have stars in my ceiling…
I quickly recalled the events of what just happened earlier
Oh my!
I rapidly sprang up on the bed.. ahh head rush!
I had my hand to hold it still..
“Take it easy! Its ok, your in my room..” he said calmly..
“Im in where? What?” my hand still on my head..
He came and sat on the bed facing me..
“Here, drink this.” He offered me a glass of water..
I took it and slowly began drinking it..
“Feel better?” he asked
I nodded..
“Do you mind telling me what happened?” I asked..
“Wanna know the part where I told you you couldn’t do it or when you collapsed while doing it?” he chuckled..
Victory, yet again..
“You know which one..” I lowered my head..
“Well, its simple, you tried lifting a tire that’s twice your weight, you couldn’t handle it, must’ve got extremely dehydrated from the sun and blacked out..”
“Wow...” taking in what he just said..
“Yeah well you shouldve listened to me when I told you..” he said sounding concerned..
“I know..” I said sounding defeated.
“That makes me the winner you know” he said jokingly.
“What? No it doesn’t.” I said looking at him.
“Oh yes it does..” he smiled his crocked smile.
“Alright fine you win, what do you want me to do?” I wondered..
“Go on a date with me” he simply stated..
I think i just got struck by lightening
Did he just ask me out?
Or did I imagine he did?
“So what do you say?” he asked while that smile still plastered on his face..
“Um yeah sure ok..” I answered feeling my cheeks burn..
“Oh and btw your car is good to go”
“Oh yeah I forgot about that! Thank you so much for helping me!”
“No prob.”
“Wait you didn’t tell me how'd you notice I had trouble with my car?” I asked curiously..
“That’s cause your car broke across the street from where I live..”
Wow that was stupid of me..
“What time is it?” I asked looking for a clock..
“It's 9:20 at night”
“Oh I better get back home..” I said not wanting to leave..
I lifted the cover away from me and stood up..
I sensed a slight spin,
At the same time I felt one hand holding my arm and the other supporting my back..
“Are you ok?” his voice was so close to my ear, it made me shiver..
“I'm fine, its just a head spin..” I managed to say..
“Wont let you drive like this, ill drop you home..” he stated.
I knew I couldn’t argue so I just nodded..
We walked to his car, his hand still on my back and I..
I was living a dream..
His car was a black bmw 650i
I got into the passenger seat..
And we drove until we reached my house, he parked at the gate, came to my side and opened the door, held his hand out for me, I held it and stepped down, we walked to the gate, and I entered the code for it to open..
“You have a beautiful house out here..” he said..
“Thank you..” I replied..
It's true we have a pretty big house but i always feel so empty in it..
We walked through the gate, still holding hands, I don’t know why but I felt so attached to him, and that’s what I fear the most..
We reached the door step..
“Thanks again..” I said facing him..
“For what..”
“For everything you did today..” I said sincerely..
“My pleasure..” and there was his smile again, the smile that makes my knees buckle, butterflies dance like crazy..
“So i'll see you tomorrow then?” he said breaking the silence..
I was on cloud 9..
“Tomorrow?”
“Yeah say around 7?”
“7 is good..”
he chuckled, I think he noticed how dazed I was…
“Alright then, you take care of yourself Hope”
“Wait how’d you know my name?” I asked surprised..
“I have my ways..” he winked..
“You better get some sleep..” he said concerned..
“Ok then..” I said while reaching the door..
“Goodnight mmm... ” I said as I looked back at him waiting for him to tell me his name..
"It's Trust.."
Trust... aahh...
"Oh,, goodnight Trust.." i said smiling..
"Goodnight Hope.." he said and walked away..
I got inside the house, grabbed a banana from the kitchen and ate it on my way to my bedroom, got into my pj’s and cuddled into my bed..
Friday, September 17, 2010
Prettiest Creature
Sunday, September 12, 2010
You (part 1)
What was I thinking?
I’m sure I wasn’t.
His oh-so-soothing words, his soft melodic voice, his piercing yet innocent black eyes, killer physique, oh-so-charming looks, sharp cute nose, sun-kissed skin, perfect teeth, and a smile that would make any girl fall for him.
I just never thought that one day that girl,,
would be me.
My name is Hope, and I’m but an ordinary looking girl, people say I’m pretty but never beautiful. I have a tiny nose, small brown eyes, wavy-curly long brown hair, slightly tanned skin, small yet full pink lips.
Oh yeah and you need to know one more thing about me...
i have never had a boyfriend in my entire life nor plan to. Why? Because I think that relationships are merely but a scam, thats right, a scam.
I just know that someday, when the time comes, no matter how long ill wait for the right one to come, I’ll know if its meant to be simply by looking into his eyes, and then ill know deep down if he’s the one for me or not,, I just do... Because I have hope.
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Who am I kidding to be able to think again after meeting a man like him?
I will never forget the day I met him.
I was on my way back from uni in the hot blazing sun, exhausted, just as I was about to reach the corner to my house I must have ran over something so I immediately stopped the car, thank god I wasn’t speeding. I had to get down to check if everything was ok. Not that I would know if there was anything wrong,
I got down from the car and had a look on all the tires, until I got to the front right one did I notice that it was flat and had a nail stuck through it.
"Perfect." I thought.
I had no one to call right now, I’m an only child, my parents and my cousins are away for the summer, My best friend has a class right now.
Dialing Saleem..
Saleem: Hello?
Me: Hi Saleem where are you?
Saleem: I went holiday, today is Sunday. Why ma’am?
Me: oh yeah I forgot its Sunday. Please can you come pick me up, I’m in Luke Street, got a flat tire and I’m stuck.
Saleem: ok ma’am I’m coming now.
Me: thank you saleem.
End call.
I got back inside the car, opened the A.C, had a random radio station on, and sat waiting for Saleem to come.
5 minutes passed..
10 minutes passed..
35 minutes passed..
Still no saleem.
I wonder whats taking him so long!
I debated whether or not to go back home walking, but in this weather, who knows if ill even make it. I was just about to call saleem when out of nowhere i heard someone knock on my window, I got startled and I turned my face to see who it was, and there he was, wearing a white polo shirt with his Ray bans on.
I turned off the radio and rolled down my window..
“Hi, excuse me, is everything ok?” The man spoke.
“uhhh..” I don’t know why but I was speechless.
“Sorry, are you ok?” he chuckled.
I died and went to heaven.
His voice,,
His laugh,,
Stop it hope! Focus!
“Oh um yeah I’m fine its just that I have a flat tire no big deal..” fhew that was easy.
“It’s a good thing I have the tools then.” He smiled.
His smile..
“Oh no its ok really don’t worry about it, I just called someone up, they’re on their way to fix it.” I lied. I’d be torturing him if I let him.
“Did you now?” he asked with one eyebrow raised.
“Yeah..” I simply replied.
“Then how come it’s been almost an hour and still no one showed up?” he said with a hint of victory.
“Huh uhh umm..” was all I could come up with. What’s wrong with me! Wait how did he even know that?!
He smirked.
“I’ll be right back.” He said and walked away.